one thousand greetings/apologies and winks for allowing so much time to pass between blogs.
i've missed posting my thoughts...from work...no less. whirlwind cannot even begin to describe the changes that have occurred in the last, almost month now. from love to graduation to work....i've been going through that "rite of passage" feeling that everyone who finishes something big goes through....be it graduation (in my case), a wedding, having a child, starting a new job (my case again)...what have you. all cliche examples but its all i could come up with.
i must tell you that i started this blog at nineam. it's now elevenam and i just got back from completing my health/dental/life insurance procedures...if that's not fucking scary...i don't know what is. i'm aging fast. can someone lead me to that proverbial fountain of youth i should be looking for? ok maybe not yet.
some of the great things that have happened to me during the last weeks...
graduated from college.finally.ceremony was nice, weather was hot in herre/said goodbye to my dear friends from eyehouse. that was sad.it still is actually.luckily we all care enough about each other to keep in touch.some may even move to delaware..maybe.oktoberfest anyone?/moved out of ihouse (ah the memories) and back home (for now)...it's good to chill with my family/started my new job (very fast/busy/noisy...people are nice...but in order to be $ucce$$ful you need to have a rough mentality...at least in my field) free coffee...alright alright alright/found my future home (a townhouse i'll be moving into in august that's 3 minutes from work)
found the relationship i've been in longing for, for what seems like my whole life. she's wonderful...smart/funny/exciting/spontaneous/caring/understanding/witty/genuine/real/unique/someonewhocanrelate/beautiful...an another level type girl..once in a lifetime type of girl..check that once in a million lifetimes type of girl. i've really fallen for her and i don't want to get up. there are a few issues that are pains in our angle-side-sides but its nothing we can't fight and overcome. for those of you reading who don't think it can happen...trust me it can. you're beautiful babe ms. summer rain.
ok i think i've caught up to speed....too bad the limit is 55, this cat's going 95 right now.
just listening to the radio. which plays a lot of bullshit by the way
just watching. cnbc...my co-workers love it so i have no choice
just reading. a lot of things that i don't quite understand, yet
just thinking. ok...breathe...now open your eyes.
i am 'officially' done on saturday. really great stuff. really confusing stuff. really exciting stuff. i know what i'm doing after i graduate but i really don't know what i'm doing when i graduate. i think everyone i know who is graduating is experiencing the same thing.
my friend lets call her summer rain has been on my mind like crazy. we so desperately want to be together but there are barriers to entering such a great thing...too many to mention...but i know she likes me and i'm so into her i can't even begin to describe. i know that those of you who read this probably don't really care about this but its what has been on my mind since the friday last. i know it can't happen now, but inside i know we'll do our best to make it happen; barriers and all. summer rain.
sorry i've been on a hiatus from blogging. i work on less than 3 hours of sleep every night...the remaining 21 hours can be encapsulated in one giant (apartment hunting/world cup watching/moving and packing/having fun with friends/discovering more about spontaneous/smart/real/beautiful summer rain/living life) crepe. sorry but that's all i could come up with now.
and so i leave you with...
"something like this it just feels so right...nothing comes easily....sometimes you've got to fight...amber is the color of your energy."
i'm finally done school had a whirlwind weekend. celebrated andrea's birthday...fun time. also celebrated the graduation of some friends over the weekend.
i'm still in shock about how over everything is (academically) and everything is a changing. friends are leaving. when i think about the last week i am reminded of that video by vanhalen called "right now". one of the stills in the video shows a clock and the quote says "time is having its way with you". couldn't be anymore true.
i think after this weekend i'm more confused than ever before...this time it deals with the opposite sex. enough said. walk on.
music- weezer.n.e.r.d.aerosmith.u2
reading- siddhartha by hesse
thinking- it never really does work out, does it?
