wow...i haven't really written in quite sometime. i have a habit of putting things i'd like to do off for indefinite amounts of time. anyways...let's see what's happened since my last post.
celebrated my 23rd birthday with my girl and my friends. very very excellent time. for those of you who remember i was gone beyond my gord last year. serious lack of control on my part. should've know better than to take vodka/tequila mixed shots from my turkish flatmates. damn. danger...watchaself.
ok what else...i remain on the fast track to unlimited careerdom. i need a break of some sort. maybe grad school, maybe volunteering, something to halt this monotony (sic?). aside from work...i have nothing to say but extremely good things about ma vie privee. my love for D is still strong...i see her every weekend (which isn't enough) but i've recently discovered that the drive to nj is much cheaper and quicker (on some level). my schedule is no longer determined by the powers that be at that grand ole transit monopoly known as amtrak. ha! how bout them apples.
i've been told quite a few times from friends who patronize me, by reading this blog, that my discussions regarding my love for my lady is quite disgusting and it makes them less likely to read my posts considering how much i talk about my relationship. my words to those, kind...yet honest folk...yeah you who dare question my posts...to you this is what i say...
SHUT YOUR MOUTH...try not to panic.
back to what i want to talk about....
to know someone loves you in the same way you love them is such a wonderful feeling. the feeling you get looking at that person's face in the morning...the feeling you get when you tell them how much you love them and they give you a smile that can light the world for generations...the beauty inside and outside...uncomparable to anything in this world. that is love my friends. i love you D. i can't wait to move you nyc to be with you tous les temps. you're so beautiful.
ok ok ok...i'll leave your eyes alone.
great new artist to look out for...thicke...the song "when i get you alone" good good stuff.
things not to look out for..."the rules of attraction" absolutely horrendous.
Sucker love is heaven sent.
You pucker up, our passion's spent.
My hearts a tart, your body's rent.
My body's broken, yours is spent.
Carve your name into my arm.
Instead of stressed, I lie here charmed.
Cuz there's nothing else to do,
Every me and every you.
Sucker love, a box I choose.
No other box I choose to use.
Another love I would abuse,
No circumstances could excuse.
In the shape of things to come.
Too much poison come undone.
Cuz there's nothing else to do,
Every me and every you.
Every me and every you,
Every Me...he
Sucker love is known to swing.
Prone to cling and waste these things.
Pucker up for heavens sake.
There's never been so much at stake.
I serve my head up on a plate.
It's only comfort, calling late.
Cuz there's nothing else to do,
Every me and every you.
Every me and every you,
Every Me...he
Every me and every you,
Every Me...he
Like the naked leads the blind.
I know I'm selfish, I'm unkind.
Sucker love I always find,
Someone to bruise and leave behind.
All alone in space and time.
There's nothing here but what here's here's mine.
Something borrowed, something blue.
Every me and every you.
Every me and every you.
met summer's parents (this time it included her dad). i was a bit imtimidated and continue to be. i am a self-proclaimed sweet-talker when it comes to parents....so we'll see in the long run. how i fare...
up north it is a much different atmosphere. life in de, it simply pales in comparison. there is so much to offer in other 'big' cities. though i grew up here i think i'm a city boy at heart.
went to the strokes show last nite with dirty mcdurbin. fucking awesome i must say. i swear i was rubbing elbows with drew barrymore, but neither mcdurbin or i could truly vouch for it. i do know she dates the band's drummer. oh well. the first two bands were ok. but the strokes set was the showstopper. true rock and roll....and c'mon he fucking said 'fucking homeboys from back in da day' props to that drunk lead singer. great show.
b-day is fast approach...to think where i was last year to where i am now. i wouldn't have even imagined it.
a lot can happen in a year but a lot can change in a year too.
months fly by so fast now. i don't know where the time goes. somehow i feel like i've been productive, be it professionally, personally, or otherwise. ok i'm getting reminiscent...i think the months following graduation have been pretty calm, though trying at times, i'm glad with what i've done and looking forward i hope the next months are just as wonderful.
work is work. the financial markets are really bad. i think the labor market is just as worse. if i planned to do anything it SHOULD definitely be worth it. don't know about the rest of you but i think the pressure i have at work is very similar to those found at most professions, but on some levels it surpasses. second-to-second decision making that can enable you to make/lose money; just like that. sometimes i feel like i wouldn't want to trade my job...othertimes i'm ready to pull a postal...just kidding folks.
that's work though. outside i think i've managed to live in obscurity (sic) don't really make it out too often and that may upset some people. i'm sorry, i'm just a dork who enjoys staying at home after a good dinner and wants to watch t.v. or a dvd. i try to make it to the movies or the mall occasionally, but i think the days of me randomly going to bars, clubs, lounges, what have you....i think they are going to be put aside. who knows...maybe sweet november will yield actions contrary to what i've listed above. i doubt it though.
i just started playing sport for my company club team. fucking unbelievable the competition, but i realised how out-of-shape my ass really is. i could point it to the smoking or the drinking or the lack of sleep or the drugs...um....just kidding. i don't do drugs. but my lack of sleep and constant stomach-turning would cause one to believe a different story.
then there's love. i think it has been a challenge but one that was welcomed and will continue to be. on one hand it so easy to love her on the other it gets harder to be far apart from her. sometimes it can be really tough especially if all the come-yoon-ie-k is via telephone. we've managed to log a lot of driving and train miles....maybe more in the future....but may(nyc)be it won't be long...when she or i can take the subwAy to seeU eacGh Oo3ther. making moves to higher places. babes read between the lines. hee. my relationship with her is so great. i am just hopeful that everyone can experience what i have. the love i have for her and the love she gives me....it so wonderful, magical, spiritual....all that stuff. skeptics...laugh all you want, criticize as much as you want, habor all the cynicism you want about viewing love. i was that way too. but 1nce you find her or him, you will INDEED know it. it's that surreal feeling that not even the most creative writer can pen up. it's that rush or that highest of the high that skydiving or any road rules episode couldn't come close to capturing. it's that undescribable smile or thought you possess knowing that you're loved unconditionally. that my friends is a special thing called love. i love you dr or rain or infinity or buster or waldo. (as i type she sprays the best scent found on this earth or er...the duane reade-e on 52nd street. i do love her so.
this weekend...i meet the dad. my preconceived notions have led me to harbor feelings of anxiety and unbounding fear that he will pound my ass to the ground...if he doesn't like me. i hope the mom can back me up...hee.
um...i turn 23 in a week. don't know how to feel about that. i should write more later.
the strokes are in philly sunday. the durbin or the lazy eye as i will start calling him are in for a night partying with rock stars.
listening-to the strokes so i can sing the shit at the show
watching-scandalous behavior on the rw-lasvegas. skanky isn't even close.
thinking-i wish rain would take the day off. i think it will be a nice day.
if you do drive the njturnpike be careful these guys are horrible drivers.
